Well it's been awhile hasn't it! So much has changed...I really need to work on updating this more often. Where to begin....

Relationships:
Well me and Julio broke up just shortly after our 2 year anniversary. The long distance was really tough, and it just didn't work out. Our friendship has had quite the rough spell, but we seem to be getting along better. :]
I met this guy Zeke at a Disturbed concert and we've started dating. He's pretty much fantastic! My parents don't seem to approve though even though they don't know him. He lives about 50 miles away. He's an artist and a musician. Really good one at that...I'm not just saying that because I'm his girlfriend either :]



This is him sitting on the computer at my house :] He's normally not that sad looking!



And this is us together...we're pretty much dorks :]

Sports:
I didn't make it to state in track. Obi didn't either...but it was a really fun season and the team did great! We had 2 state champions and I believe 8 state qualifiers! I'm not running summer track..Junior Olympics. We have a meet this weekend. It's a pretty big one...qualifications for regionals! :] I'll be doing sprints thank god xD

Life:
I've been grounded for about 3 or 4 months for staying the night at Zeke's. Whoops... :] It looks as if they're finally letting up though! Yay! School is out for the summer and I am now officially a senior! I can't wait to graduate! I've looked at a few more colleges but none seem to fit quite right. I'm considering taking a year between highschool and college and hitchiking through 49 states with a friend. Nothing set in stone though! I recently went to a book sale and oh boy it was heaven! I bought a whole box of books! My autistic brother Zach went up to Seattle for surgery last week. Everything went great! They put a chip in his chest with a wire connecting to a nerve in his neck to help control seizures. They haven't turned it on yet but hopefully it works! He has to go up there for checkups every otherweek. Oh boy...so much car time! Other than that life has been pretty dull. I'm job hunting because I need the money and need something to occupy my time. Hopefully soon I'll finally be getting my permit so i can get my license. I'm getting my Grandma June's car sometime this summer, and Arjuna gave obi a car. Now we just need to be able to drive them xD Hmm...I think that's everything so here's some pictures!



This is me dressing up as a G-G-G-GANGSTA to cheer up one of my girlfriends after our college class :] I can always make that girl smile!



This is the cross country team at Boise. A traditional picture we do every year :] Us by a slow sign pointing at the "slow" person. :]



Me, Zeke, and Dustin. Dustin and I have known each other for a few years but just started hanging out this year. He's hillarious, super smart, and almost 7 feet tall. No joke!



This is Ani :] AKA Tranny Ani AKA Crack Head AKA Coke Head. All names very fitting :] Jk jk :] I met her in my college class and she's quite the hippie. And yes that's quite the black eye...Damn gangs and the rotten mexicans! I'm not really racist but they were mexicans...Any who... :]

Me With The State Champion!

Labels: ASVABS, SAT's, XC season

Well XC has officially started and I'm so excited! We did time trials yesterday and everyone did amazing! All the girls dropped atleast 2 minutes off of last years time trial...I dropped 8 minutes! We have a foreign exchange student from germany! She's really cool! I think when she figures out how long a mile is she'll be fast [since they don't go by miles over there]. This is the best girls team in the history of Umatilla XC and that's so cool! We have a really good shot at going to state, we're pretty sure we're going! My breathing has been better than it's ever been...even before I had asthma! Usually I have to run with my inhaler in my hand but not anymore! I don't even have to bring it to practice! We were a little bummed about the season because we weren't going to go to the Boise meet. We have so many traditions there and that's when the team bonds the most. It really brings the freshman into the group better, and improves us as a team. So us captains basically told the coach he was being stupid and it was a bad decision...and now we're going! Julio's college will be there running, and the whole team is excited about that! He's like everyone's best friend! That's all the XC news I have for now, but our first meet is this next friday so I'll post more then!

Labels: XC season

So fair season was about 2 weeks ago! It was bittersweet! I had gone with my best friend Rachel Spencer earlier. Me and Julio went friday...the 2nd to last day! I say it was bittersweet because Julio was leaving that weekend. I was so sad, scared, and worried. We had a lot of fun though! We rode the rides, ate greasy, sugary fair food, browsed the tents, and saw wild animals! We didn't ride many rides because I was feeling a little queesy.



The first thing we did was go to Ye Olde Pizza Shoppe in Hermiston and eat dinner. We ran into my parents there, they were picking up dinner for the rest of the familia. While waiting for pizza we played some arcade games, and I totally kicked his butt! We had a lot of fun, but again it was bittersweet knowing that this was the last time for 4 months that we could hang out like this.
"I've got you, now I'm not alone."

-Sum 41 lyrics
Wow check out the collarbone. This one is my fav! Well it's tied with the one above it!
Last kisses :(
My makeup looks funny in this! But it's a cute pic!

He was in trouble can't yea tell :D

We weren't supposed to be looking at the camera...silly boys!
Our steps always match up perfect. We decided to document it for proof and so that we don't forget it while he's gone.
I love him so much!

Not sure what to say about this...other than I love it...even though we look like we're drooling!

Wind in the hair pictures!

Ugh I look funny!

I know that's a lot of pictures, but that night was just so important that I feel that I can't leave any moment out! These were mostly walking to his car to put an old fashioned photo in his car. We stopped in the skate park to take silly pictures. We wanted tons of pictures since he was leaving in 2 days. It was so windy. Some time I'll have to get the old fashioned pics up...they're so cute!

This one is right after one of the rides got over and we were waiting to be let out! I don't know what it's called but we call it the cage flippy thingy! It was so fun! We got it going good!
My nose is all squished up! These are all of us leaving fair!
My fav purple pants, and sad because the night is over.
Walking through the park on the way to the car, we stopped for pictures. This is one of the piggy back ride pics!
This one is standing in line at the last ride we did.
Same thing.
My crinkle poo!
Striking a pose for papparazzi!
ummmm i'm not really sure....
whoops uploaded it 2x
I wasn't in a smiley mood, but he wanted a smiley picture...

I really didn't want to leave. It meant more than just the end of the night, but signified the end of so much more. We haven't broken up but we both know how difficult this is going to be! I mean he's in college and I won't see him until November. He's going to try to come down for homecoming but it is a slim chance. We both trust each other so much, and I know we can make it if we try. It's going to take a lot of growing up, a lot of maturity, and a lot of strength. We don't get to talk to each other as much as we'd like, as we do lead busy lives. Some times I hate that we're both such high achievers. So as of right now he's in Portland attending Cascade Christian College. He's running cross country, and has all of his college paid for except for 2,000. That's not bad! He's thriving up there, and has already made so many friends...I knew he would! He says that it's almost impossible to cheat up there cuz the school is so strict, not that I'm worried! Not that he would. I trust him more than anyone...he's never done anything for me not to. I'm so proud of him, and can't wait to see him again.

I got some good news yesterday too! I'll be able to see him at a cross country race, both of our teams are going to it in boise! It won't be for long, but it's better than nothing!

The final goodbye pictures are below. What a sad moment :(

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So I got back from Steens Mountain Running Camp sunday evening. It was the most intense experience I've ever had. I faced things that helped me not only get physically tougher,but mentally and emotionally as well.

The first day at camp wasn't much. We just set up our areas in the tents, ate, and got acquainted with the camp counselors, coaches, etc. We also found out what days we had k.p. and what it consisted of. I made a few friends...Ashley Doughty from North Carolina and Justin Webb from Nampa, Idaho. Me and Ashley shared an air mattress since hers was HUGE! It was a HOT bus ride up the mountain but we had fun doing "UNFORGIVABLE" impressons. [It's a youtube video]

The second day we did a few acclimation runs, [short ones, like starting with 2 minutes and working to 8] to get used to the altitude. We had one girl pass out just sitting in a chair! We also went on a hike...the view into the canyon was amazing! It was the weirdest thing too...their was snow but it was super hot! It didn't make any sense! After the hike we had to run back to camp. We did have the choice though of running 7,5,or 3 miles back. I chose 7 and very few girls did...very few people did period! I ran most of it by myself, at a slow pace...I was in the VERY back. The chaser car though had to pick someone up and they dropped the guy off to run the last mile or two with me. I beat him back to camp...ha sucker! I was so excited...I only used my inhaler once!!! Back at camp I jumped in the ice cold mountain fed crick to ice my legs and get cleaned up a little bit before dinner [no showers]. Turns out I was supposed to make a pb&j sandwich before dinner...I ended up being the last one to make mine and getting chewed out by "The Hammer". Apparently we're supposed to eat BEFORE we get cleaned up...oops! At dinner I made a few more friends [all guys of course lol] and hung out around the campfire until it was bed time.

The Big Day had arrived. 30 miles in one day. After getting woken up by spanish music at 5 a.m. and eating breakfast we were dropped off at 9,000 elevation. It was about 7 or 8 am. We had to hike down the side of the canyon/mountain. Unfortunately there was no path and walking down a steep, slippery, dusty, rocky, sagebrushy mountain side for 3 hours really pulls a number on your thighs. When we reached the bottom we were given time for a snack and a chance to change our socks before we took off again. We hiked some more until we reached our lunch spot. It wasn't really hiking for those of us in the back though. We were continually having to run to ensure there was no gaps...ugh! We got a 15 minute lunch break. I was so exhausted already it wasn't even funny! My legs were dead, I hadn't had enough time to eat a full lunch, and blisters were taking over my feet! I felt disgusting...everytime i wiped sweat off my face on my shirt it was brown from all the dust. So we begin walking again, about a half hour and we reach some campgrounds for a water refill and potty break. The lines were so long I didnt get my pee break [darn]. Now was the running time. We had to run 9 miles doing 60-60's. That is a 60 second sprint with a 60 second jog. We had four groups 1 being elite boys 2 elite girls 3 easier than those but still difficult and 4 "walking". I started in three but had to drop to 4 thanks to my asthma. Well their walking turned out to be my jogging...not helpful when your having an asthma attack. So i created group 5...when a chaser tried getting us to catch up my asthma kicked in so they had me walk the nine miles with a trainer. Then when I thought I was almost done there was this hill. You can't even imagine it. Your legs are so dead that you don't think you can walk and you look up and up and up, this hill that you can't see the end of. A mile long. The last mile. The longest mile of my life! Tears were streaming down my face as I walked that last hill. Step by step, one foot in front of the other, waiting to collapse. I was physically, mentally, and emotionally exhausted. When i finally reached the top I was so excited. Until I realized I had to walk 400 more meters to the bus...I was heart broken and pissed! I got to the bus and collapsed...my legs could not move...I barely ate when I got back...I had to force it down and went to sleep ASAP!

The 4th day we didnt do much...a lot of short recovery runs and then predicta mile. It was a tent activity and my team didnt do as good as we thought we did ;p I think that night was family style dinner as well. We had to sit with out tents...and oh my god my tent was ANNOYING! They were so loud, and rude, and obnoxious...there was only maybe 4 girls I actually got a long with.


The rest of the week wasn't too interesting to go over in details...so I'll just mention the highlights!

We had "olympics" I was kina pissed that I didnt get signed up for any of the events in my tent other than the mandatory team events. So the only thing I did was tug of war. My team was good at that but not much else. We were shocked when we took 3rd out of 4! After the relay we jumped into the mud pit for tug of war and mud wrestled...it was a blast! It was some serious wrastlin...we drew blood...mwuahaha!!! After though we realized that it had been a mistake...the closest we had to a shower was a freezing crick and equally cold hoses...talk about cold!

There was also turkey dinner...I had a date with a kid from germany. He was kina nerdy but he was 14 and I couldn't say no since he had the balls to ask. It was hillarious seeing the guys scrambling for dates since there were more guys than girls! The dinner was DELICIOUS and my date was akward and funny but cute. He had tons of cute card tricks but he kept tryin to make a move...poor kid!

After we left camp we went and visited Jordan Valley...I missed it so much! I got to see grandma, aunt bobby and uncle leon! The shower was amazing though...felt so good to be clean! I got to see josh terry...I had missed him so much! He has a recording studio in the ghetto and he gave me a cd with a couple songs. I'm pretty sure one of them he wrote for me. It's SOOO cute and I love it. Kind of hey there delilah/bob dylan mix cuz he can't really sing.

We came home the next day [sunday]. I wish I could have stayed there.

"If home is where the heart is then I'm out of place"




This is one of the girls in my tent I got along with...I love her so much! This is Nicole from Brookings!

My mom gets back from Washington D.C. tonight! I'm so glad! I appreciate her SO much more now. I think if I have to cook again I'll scream [well I have 2 meals left...lunch and dinner]. But after that I swear I will! This week was so stressful without her, because Obi wasn't much of a help, and dad likes to "supervise" lol. I think I have all the chores caught up that she wanted [like laundry]. I hope there's not much more to be done!

I have to actually pack for Steens Mountain Running Camp today. I've put this off all week, but seeing as how I leave tomorrow...I might wanna do it lol. I'm so nervous about camp. I meaning running is hard for me period let alone in high altitude, when I'm not in very good shape for it. Oh well, it'll just hurt, I'll survive.

Julio leaves either today or tomorrow I believe for time trials at college but he'll be back. He leaves again the 8th for his college running camp. Then he might come back but probably not. I'm going to miss him so much! I've been dating him for most of high school and he is like my best friend in Umatilla. I'm lost without him...I guess I'll just have to find my way.

Schedules for school are coming out soon. I'm so worried about mine, none of my classes seemed to work together. My electives and required classes totally clashed! Thankfully because of that though I got out of concert band and can still do jazz band. Usually to do jazz band concert is required. I guess I'm special circumstances! I only say thankfully though because band can be less than fun...I mean the director means well, but he doesn't have a clue with teenagers. He just can't seem to relate.

Well I think I'm officially done babbling. This is my last post until I get off the mountain...then I'll have a lot of stuff to write about. It'll be more interesting guaranteed!

Well I think I'll start this blog just letting you get to know me better [if you don't already! If you do, enjoy the memories]



This is my best friend in the world Rachel Spencer. We only went to school together my 8th grade year but she's my bff for life! We used to hate each other when she first moved here...she thought I was a stuck up prep [which turns out I've became a punk/scene kid] and I thought she was a boyfriend stealer. Like it was her fault he liked her [they didn't date lol]. She moved to Irrigon when they got evicted from their house. I miss her so much but I spend most of my time at her house. She's always there for me and I'm always there for her. We have nicknames for each other and even have a "club". It's the 7's. Because her birthday is February 7th and mine is March 7th. There was one more 7 Cheyenne [August 7th] but we kind of drifted. So that's my bestest friend forever!



This is the original 7's. Mwuah, Rachel, and Cheyenne!



This is another of my best friends and my boyfriend. Julio Garcia. We've been dating for 1 year and 6 months [almost 7]. He leaves for college in 2 weeks...and I'll be gone for 1 week and a half of it. I love him so much! He is just so amazing to me. He treats me better than I ever thought possible. I can tell him anything, and he can tell me anything. There's almost nothing we don't know about each other. Other than Rachel he is one of the few people who have accepted me for me. We have so much in common and are like perfect puzzle pieces.



I'm a runner. I run cross country and track. My team [boys and girls] made it to state my freshman year. Girls took 4th over all and boys took 9th...quite impressive actually! I've always ran varsity [I could never settle for less]. I'm a severe asthmatic but nothing can stop me as long as I'm not passed out. So far that hasn't happened yet...close but not yet! I'm pretty much a beast...I run mostly on heart cuz i'm not a distance runner. I do better at sprints but my highschool sprinting career has had bad luck. My freshman year I pulled my hip flexor and kept running on it...therefore I hurt it worse AND my times sucked. My sophomore year I was sick almost the whole season. I was there the last 2 weeks. I didn't make it to state my sophomore year but I WILL make it to state this year. There is no other option!



This is my family. Not all of it because I have a HUGE family. These are just the ones that I was raised with the most, so am closest to. Obi and Zach are twins...Zach is autistic and Obi is just annoying. I guess most little brothers are. Their like 1 year and a half younger than me. Sometimes I think Zach is an angel sent from god. He is so special! Arjuna is my hero. He is the youngest out of my older brothers, and is in the navy! He is married and the little girl is his step daughter Jenicy.



This is my cousin Levi Michael Waller. I spent last summer in Jordan Valley working for my Aunt Robin at her restaurant [The Basque Inn]. Levi took me around and introduced me and linked me to humanity. He was the most amazing person you could ever meet. His bad days were better than most people's good days. Even though he was a smart ass he never left anyone out and was really caring. He played lead guitar in a band The Tin Stars. He was an amazing guitar player. Unfortunately July 11, 2007 he died in a car crash. I was supposed to be with him that night, but thank god my grandma wouldn't let me go. I'm still not over it...I don't think I ever will be. Rest In Peace Beav!



This is from Blooms Day. I went with some of my really good guy friends. Nick Ash [graduated this year....my "hubby", the nerdy one], Jacob Vandever [the short white one], Mario Aparicio [the mexican lol...he's a genius], and Jacob's mom Krystal. This is the band group [adding me]. We don't hang much outside of school but these guys I know I can tell anything and it won't leave the group. I trust them so much, and they are just really nice guys. They're the kind of guys that I could walk in front of them naked and they wouldn't make a move. They'd prolly crack some jokes but mostly prolly wonder why I was naked lol.



These are 2 of my 3 sisters and my biological dad. I hadn't met them before that I can recall. I'd looked forward to this my whole life. I think they are so beautiful and amazing! I have one sister left to meet and I can't wait. It was unfortunate that I had to meet the Hayhurst family under the circumstances [funeral] but I'm glad I met them. I felt like I found another piece to the puzzle that makes me who I am. I found a piece of myself. And I finally found out where my smile came from ;p.



This is another one of my really good guy friends. Matt Tassee. He graduated this year, and we've had some good times. He's a really funny guy and is prolly too nice for his own good! We don't get to hang out as often as I would like but we're friends none the less. He was one of the first friends I made in high school...he was part of the table that invited me to sit with them instead of my corner. Thank you :D











I'm a major dork! I love making funny faces, and am quite random. I'm very creative! I love to write poems and songs. I am in concert and jazz band. I've played clarinet since 5th grade and baritone saxiphone since 8th grade. I love music and literature. I can pick my way through a couple instruments. When it comes to music I like everything but country...a little rap, a little techno, a little pop, a little indie, and a lot of rock! I love anything with a good beat though! I love to read...my mom used to ground me from reading cuz it was all I did. I think bookworms are sexy, and guys that can pull off eye liner. I hate running but for some reason subject myself to it's insanity anyways. I love myspace....look me up! www.myspace.com/rock_it_out4eva
I love looking for quotes that help define who I am. A lot of them come from songs. I don't get the big deal with American Idol...it's a snooze fest and simon's just a...never mind lol. Jordan Valley is where my heart resides but I want to live in Seattle. It's personality mirrors mine. I want to be the screamer in a big band but don't want to be famous. I wish I was tall enough to model. I love setting trends...I don't follow them! My dream hair do is a mohawk...as soon as I get the balls to do it! I love living out of a suit case and want to travel. I hate being in one place to long I get antsy. I'm afraid of being tied down, and don't want kids. Yet I seem to be cursed and am really good with them. I blame it on Obi, Zach, and all my siblings who asked me to babysit for them! So that's a basic idea of me. Keep reading and learn more!


Below are pictures of me, my friends, and my bro obi i think...

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